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I don't feel good now and I just wanna rant everything out here. I don't really know whether to feel angry, cry or to laugh at myself. I felt so hurt when I recalled what you told me just now. You still dared to deny it when I asked you in the first place. Why, why, why?! Why must you lie the fuck out of yourself. You seriously betrayed the trust out of yourself and us. Maybe when you tell the truth, I won't get so angry or upset but why?! Why the hell must you lie?! You told me 3 excuses to cover up your lie and I don't think any of it was the truth. I don't mind you saying things like.. I don't trust you, I'm too paranoid or other shit. I just wanna know, ain't I good enough to you? Didn't I change for the better because of you? I really feel so disappointed right now. I really feel like giving you a tight slap and end everything here. I love you, and yes I do, but why? WHY MUST YOU FUCKING HELL LIE TO MAKE ME HATE YOU SO BLOODY GOD DARN MUCH, YOU BLOODY FUCKING MOFO?! YOU FUCKING HELL KNOW THAT I DON'T LIKE PEOPLE TO LIE! FUCK YOU AND YOUR LIE!